about me

Besides the love of art, I like to travel. My favorite places are in southern Italy and the island of Capri, near Naples. I find Italy very romantic and I have painted their enchanting seashores repeatedly. I also have a passion for music, specially rock and roll          I was married, but got divorced years later. I have experienced how when love between two people is based on attraction or infatuation, it can turn into nothingness. When it is over, it is over. No contract on paper will change that. I've had long-lasting relationships, mostly ending in mutual agreement; each of us growing naturally in different directions and adopting different lifestyles.

Throughout, as the story of my life was unfolding before me, I always felt an unfullfield void. It urged me to search in several directions all at once. I read the books written by Osho, I consider him one of my reachers, I saw him last time in 1985. My first awakening happened one year before: what changed me for ever exelirated my spiritual unfolding. It was during an acid trip when I became the universe, my body contained all the galaxies within. I, in in eternal sphinx like peace witnessed all watching from eternity to eternity outside of time..I experinced a cosmic timeless expended consciousness on LSD. My life changed after that. I had no fear of death and easily undesrtood the teachings. Now my view includes an outside of time element; I do think, that time is an earthbound phenomena and I know, that new my essence is timeless and divine.        I have been practicing yoga since childhood, always on a lookout for teachers. This search led me to Yogi Bhajan. At the time, he was teaching Kundalini Yoga in Los Angeles, California, where I was living also. Yogi Bhajan wears a white turban, so, when saw an advertisement for public talks given by Sant Thakar, wearing a white turban, it caught my attention. Out of curiosity, I went to see him. Wearing the same white turban style means both and Sant Thakar Singh were borne into Sikh famlies. I truly admire the values of a Kalsha Sikh. The talks were about "Sant Mat." Sant Mat is also known as Shurat Shabd Yoga, or "Yoga of the Inner Light and Sound." I found the place where the talks were given, the Army Museum of Los Angeles, to be unattractive. I felt no connection with the attending crowd either. This was not reminiscent of the time I met Eckankar Master Darwin and how I had felt a strong sense of belonging among those people. Here, I had felt the opposite. The audience seemed stiff and mostly middle-aged. After Sant Thakar's speech, I left immediately, with the two friends who accompanied me. We left without receiving the initiation or learning how to meditate in this path. Both the initiation and learning how to meditate in this path were being offered after the lecture. This is interesting, because I ended visiting Sant Thakar numerous times in India; staying eight month at a stretch and learning how to meditate with the "Sound." Became the so called 24 hours meditator sitting next to Ching Hai for hours and days at length in samadhi. She later founded the Quan Yin movement and is a Grand Master now.          Around the tragedy 9/11 I had a Kundalini quickening and discovered the Amritnadi of Ramana Maharshi, which lead me to Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj: the Advaita, Non-Dualist teachings. My practice today is mindfulness: 'keeping awareness aware on awareness'. My search ended I saw, that all paths lead to the same realization, that pealing off the ignorance and surrendering the ego to be a witness, not the doer lets the Light shine through, what is Enlightenment.         The Aum the audible current Shabd was used by the mystics, shamans from time imemorial; even Jesus knew about it. It is the fastes rout to Enlightenment. This audible sound is belived to be the creative and sustaining force of the universe, also known as the "Audible Life Stream", the "Music of the Spheres", or God, the indescribable Self of Ramana Maharshi. All the religions mention it by different names. In the Bible it is called the Word; "In the beginning there was the Word and the Word was with God and the Word was God." Surat means in "Surat Shabd Yoga" our attention, or more specifically the attention of the soul. Usually, our attention is scattered influenced by our thoughts, our emotions, and the sensory input we receive it takes conscious effort to tune out all these stimuli and tune with the Sound to the Self manifested within us.          In my opinion couple minuts of OM meditations practicd daily will develop the inner connection and atunment with the OM and that will empower one to make positive changes so that life becomes a source of blessing not only for us, but for those near us. My page the View is comparing the paths, but firsthand I only know Kundalini Yoga and Surat Shabd Yoga and I believe, that meditating on the wings Aum the sacred sound-current is a short-cut to the Light. To reach a peaceful nondual state of mind practicing Ramana Maharshi's Self-Inquiry and staying misdful is helpful. meditation | teachers | paintings back

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